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I would much appreciate if someone could help me find them:) Нравится Cole, Courtney - [Beautifully Broken ] - Until We Burn ().epub. КБ. If You Leave book. Read reviews from the world's largest community for readers. year old Gabriel Vincent is a badass hero. Or he used to be, anywa. His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with guilt First, I have to say a HUGE THANK YOU again to Courtney Cole for.

She wasn't afraid to make Pax the asshole. In doing that, the reader gets to experience falling in love right along with Mila.

It helps the reader understand how someone like Mila can see beneath the assery. Courtney Cole also has an insane talent for writing steam. There were a few scenes where I needed to bust out the plastic knickers. Even if I wasn't a fan of the story, Pax and the first few chapters were enough to completely satisfy me.

Everything else was just an added bonus! Reviewed at http: View all 24 comments. I am, however, immune to bullshit. Here goes: The first chapter had me intrigued, I was hopeful, to say the least. And, the sentiment or overall message of the story was good.

I could see what the author was attempting to accomplish. But, that was just about all that I liked about the story. And the cheesy insta-love angle? Instant turn-off. He called all kinds of women: But wait! As a woman myself. Another issue that rubbed me the wrong way was, the dude overdosed on cocaine. But I guess I will mention that her father hit her mother occasionally. Sometimes, people make mistakes, but they can change for the better. And sometimes, it takes a strong woman to forgive the lowlife that hit her.

Or, it could just be that the woman is scared to death, has her children to worry about, and other socio-economic reasons why she chooses not to leave. She could also just be humiliated. I don't know.

There could be many reasons why a woman chooses to stay. THAT is what I had a problem with. I strongly disagree. It IS a big deal, and it doesn't signify "healthy" passion at the very least. It's straight up wrong; there's no justification for domestic abuse.

All in all, this story offered me nothing new, or unique. I felt bad for Pax and his unfortunate childhood, but so what? I didn't CARE in the end. I say, skip this one. View all 11 comments. Pax Tate is, as the author so honestly warns, an asshole. But he's not your typical 'bad-boy'; he's suffers from a tragic past that invades and torments his future.

He turns to drugs and sex to cope and would be perfectly happy permanently disappearing into the blackness of oblivion Mila Hill is sweet and good and full of life; everything Pax is not. She gives Pax a reason to want to change--a reason to want to live. As his defenses slowly crumble, th 3. As his defenses slowly crumble, they reveal a secret so gut-wrenching it threatens to push him back into oblivion for good I wasn't initially sure how connected to Pax I'd become; but as I read further, I found myself sinking more comfortably into his story.

On one hand, Pax was crude, cold-hearted, and made no apologies--but on the other, he was REAL and consistent and I honestly ended up liking him. I appreciated the fact that he fulfilled his asshole destiny and didn't immediately become 'cured'. Although he very much cared for Mila, his bad boy qualities were a stubborn habit to kick and weren't magically dissolved after falling for a girl. The author did a wonderful job in bringing Pax's drug and emotional problems to life without making it feel overdone.

This story was extremely visual and certain scenes were a little difficult to read, but its in-your-face reality was refreshing. Pax and Mila's emotional relationship felt genuine. Pax's internal struggle was palpable and it broke my heart see how unworthy he found himself—I truly wanted to see him redeemed.

Book Stats: Complicated and emotional, but one to root for. Damaged, arrogant, but redeemable hero. Sweet, understanding heroine. Evolved at a believable pace. Heavy storyline centered on teetering on the edge of addiction. Raw, gritty, and bold. Successfully pulls the reader into the story. First person: Alternating dual perspectives. Follow up, continuing story.

View all 39 comments. Jan 03, Taryn rated it really liked it Shelves: The truth is never an easy thing to accept, or admit for that matter- It's the reality of your life or the situation you may be in. It can bring you so much joy, or so much pain.

Deep down, no one likes the truth. Being in oblivion is much better for him to cope with his past, or lack thereof. He has blanks in his memory, ones he's chosen to subconsciously suppress, and it affects his everyday life.

Ever since his mother died when he was a young child, his father and grandfather cut him off emotionally. Dealing with the past, family and the horrible nightmares is enough to push him over the ledge. Why deal with it all when it's so much easier to black out and forget everything? One night turns to a near fatal experience, buut is it enough to wake him from this nonexistent life he's hates living?

I welcome it with open arms. I sing to it, I croon to it. I cradle it in my arms. I do whatever the fuck I want to to it because it's a blackness of nights, and it doesn't care. If I am alone in the dark, nothing matters. I can't hurt anyone but myself, and I fucking deserve it. I close my eyes and let the darkness cradle me.

It can fuck me for all I care. She too is dealing with the loss of her parents, but through painting. It's a way to free her emotions and the stress in her life. Painting is healing for her. If that's not enough, her and her sister Madison, are struggling to keep the restaurant their parents left them up and running. Finding Pax on the beach one night changes so much for her, both good and bad. She's finding herself drawn to him when she doesn't want to be.

She's on guard when it comes to him though. She's been hurt emotionally and with so much going on in her life, is Pax worth the risk if the only outcome she can see is heartbreak? I would've preferred Pax to be a bit more of an asshole, to be honest. He did have those jerk tendencies that I love to read about, but I could always use more.

Hey, that's just me! He's bitter and hurt from the past, and when all is finally revealed, well, he never expected it- nor did Mia. It was definitely a surprise to me and I felt it down to my bones. My heart ached for him because I wasn't sure how he was going to handle the situation, if he was going to fall back into his old lifestyle or not.

I was totally surprised by Mia's actions towards the end. I did not see her doing what she did and for so long.

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I wanted so bad for them both to wake up! Mia was an angel Pax never saw coming. The chemistry between them is pretty hot from the beginning, but how can it now be? Pax is delicious! She saw his weaknesses and how easily it was for him to fall back.

She was there for him when he needed it the most. But when one is pushed away, oh lord, my heart could not handle it! If You Stay hits a little close to home for me It was very real and raw in certain aspects involving drug use. I was caught off guard by how much the author got her facts right. I found myself not wanting this book to end and when it did, there was a bittersweet feeling to it that left a smile on my face. This is one of those books that I can look back on and make me feel content, at ease Courtney Cole is a new to me author who was able to evoke so many emotions from me quite early on.

When an author can do that, I know they're a keeper. View all 52 comments. Apr 20, Giselle rated it liked it. Actual Rating: Our second POV is a sweet and innocent young girl, Mila, who meets Pax in the most unfortunate of ways. I think this is one instance where a single POV would have been much better for me.

While I understand the appeal of a dual POV when it comes to a love story, especially of this nature where both characters are such opposites, I felt like one character Pax was much more developed than the other, more likeable, too, which might seem improbable when you first meet him, turning this book into a good read that could have been great if only I had cared for both sides equally.

Fortunately for me, it's Pax's story above all. He's the ultimate bad boy whom every girl should stay away from. He's not created for us to "like" him as a character, not to mention a love interest, but he was created as an obviously broken character who you have the strange impulse to want to fix. This is what makes his character sympathetic. You get to understand what's going on in his head and how badly he wants to change--which makes all the difference.

I came to see him as someone very sweet who needs to be given a chance. Mila takes that risk. This girl, though, did not click with me. She is the definition of a "good girl", but this is not the reason why I disliked her. She was simply too naive for my taste. She jumps into a relationship with this guy with the immediate belief that he will change to become the perfect boyfriend material, even after Pax tells her that "he will try not to her her"--he emphasizes on "try".

Automatically, this would have become a red flag for me, Mila seemed to be oblivious to this warning, giving her heart to him so easily. I also didn't like how she reacted when Pax finally unfolded his past. Getting pissed at how he shut her out when he was dealing with such a traumatic memory was just not ok for me.

He needed someone to understand and leave him to deal, not someone who made him guilty for it. Our personalities just did not mesh, mine and hers. Even without our clashing minds, however, I never felt like I truly understood or got to know Mila. She wasn't as fleshed out a character as Pax, which leads me to think I would have enjoyed this book much more had we not gotten her perspective at all, and only saw her through Pax's eyes.

The romance in the book is extremely hot and definitely R rated, they also do not lack chemistry, but on that note it's a primarily physical relationship.

Instead of taking time throughout the book to get to know each other on a more emotional level, they focus on their physical attraction; which, in reality, is fine as some couples do base themselves on their physical relationship, but as a reader I felt like the romance was more superficial.

This book, however, is more than a love story. It's ultimately about Pax dealing with his past, and finding a way to get through it without ruining his life in the process. It was an emotional read, for sure, with some very hard to imagine scenarios where you can't help but want to put yourself in the MC's shoes to try to take some of their pain away.

This is the part of the book that I liked the most and I think it was well executed. Hard to read at times, but If You Stay is also an inspiring story when you consider how far Pax comes. While I didn't love both characters, I predict that Mila will resonate with some readers better than I, making it a great reading experience all around as it's far from being a bad book.

View all 19 comments. Our hero, Pax Tate, is a 24 year old super-rich trustfund baby. His past is troubled with dark secrets long since buried. Pax is angry, grief-stricken and headed down an ever more destructive path where the sweet, forgiving darkness of oblivion is just another line of coke away.

Mila Hill is herself not a stranger to loss and sadness but is dealing with things much better than Pax. She first comes across him one dark, starry night on the beach when he is half hanging out of his car completely out of his face, covered in vomit and a couple of heartbeats away from an overdose-induced cardiac arrest.

She calls an ambulance just as his heart stops beating and she has to perform CPR and he vomits all over her. She is his polar opposite — the light to his darkness, the unclouded day to his stormy skies. He sees something in her that awakens his own deeply-buried sense of self-preservation and he feels instinctively that he has to sort himself out to be a better man for her.

It takes time and Courtney Cole does an amazing job of allowing this to develop slowly throughout the novel. He makes mistakes, he atones for them, suffers the consequences and just has to weather the storm until Mila can finally accept him and everything that has happened and how he has behaved. Pax needs her though and is prepared to give her time to come to terms with all that has happened and all that has been revealed but is it too late?

This was a beautifully paced, very poignant romance with a multi-layered story as the central couple had to deal with revelations and their own, sometimes angry, reactions to the situations they found themselves in. View all 45 comments. Dec 16, Autumn Review rated it it was amazing Shelves: I can tell you right now that this book will be on my Top Ten Books of Courtney Cole has delivered one hell of a story that is sure to stay on your mind and in your heart for a long, long time.

I'll start with Pax, because well The first time I read the beginning of this book, my mouth dropped. Now, it takes a lot to surprise me, but Pax certainly did. And I loved every minute of it. When you first meet him, you really do think he's an asshole, but I promise you, you will fall in love with him too.

He is a deep and complex character. He's had to deal with some pretty serious trauma in his life. As a result, he chose self-destructive ways of dealing with his grief. That is, until he meets Mila. While their initial "meeting" is less than ideal, these two form a bond.

Yes, there is some attraction as well, but there is a true connection and chemistry between them. Mila has also had some not so great things happen in her life. I think they recognized that they shared a similar type of loss. Although, they dealt with it in totally different ways. Despite Pax's reputation and her concerns about what being with him would truly be like, Mila can't help but fall for him. Let's talk about the steam level.

This book is seriously HOT. I knew Courtney Cole could deliver on the sexy, but because Pax is such a raw character, the sex scenes were that much better.

I could go on in detail about my favorite scenes, as there are many, but I'll just highlight two key moments for me. The painting and the shower. I want to briefly mention Mila's sister Madison. I loved her and I appreciated the relationship she and Mila had. We don't see Madison all that much in this book, but I really developed strong feelings for her character. I think Madison also has an interesting story to tell.

I truly could go on and on about how much I loved this story, but I feel that it is best for the reader to experience on their own. I will tell that I've read this book three to four times now and it just got better every time I read it.

This is without a doubt my favorite book by Courtney Cole to date. So I can't promise that I won't. But I promise I will try. I haven't had any practice.

But if you stay with me, if you stay I promise that I will never leave you again. I will never shut you out again. View all 13 comments. Dec 16, Christy rated it really liked it. When I read the synopsis of this book, I just knew I would love Pax!

Pax is a user. He uses drugs, alcohol and women to deal with his issues, to fill a void he has. He wants to be numb. Things change for Pax when he meets Mila. Mila saves Pax, in more ways than one. Mila makes me want to feel things with her and for her. She wants me to be a better person simply so that I can be around her. Mila is dealing with the loss of her parents, but she copes in a different way. She is an artist. She has her studio and helps her sister run the family restaurant.

When she finds Pax on the beach one night, it changes her. She knows he has issues, but she wants to be there for him, to be around him, to be with him. Mila tries to help Pax with things, she supports him, encourages him and starts to fall for him.

Pax is falling for Mila too. She is unlike any other woman he has ever met, and he wants to change for her. They have a connection to each other, some definite chemistry. She might not know it yet, but it is true. I think the author describes this story best This story is really about a man teetering on the edge. And he chose to land on his feet in the light, even though the light is harder and takes more work. The ending was perfect! I really enjoyed this one!

Thats a promise. View all 21 comments. Feb 26, Kristen rated it liked it Shelves: I felt like I was reading a fascinating and intriguing documentary about a couple with text book problems that were brought to life through well constructed dialogue. Even though I felt like I was on the outside looking in, I still enjoyed this book.

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Odd I know View all 7 comments. Feb 09, Jennifer Kyle rated it liked it. And I have no idea what I'm getting into. If You Stay is a short story which is told in alternating povs. As a reader you are immediately sucked in from the first couple of pages.

I found Pax's road to redemption and recovery well told. Pax and Mila's connection and chemistry was strong. I loved that there wasn't a cliffhang Stars "Love never fails" "He's gorgeous, and flawed and sexy. I loved that there wasn't a cliffhanger ending but a hea. Overall, a good read! Great book. Pax was really an A-hole but an honest one. I liked how both characters said what was on their mind to each other.

No half truths or BS left unspoken. Pax's dark tormenting secret was horrid. I loved him. And Mila was an excellent character as well. She was so good to him and for him without being a doormat. Besides that minor detail this was an amazing find. View all 6 comments. Dec 29, Becky rated it it was amazing Shelves: I was lucky enough to win an autographed copy in one of her contest and to say I was excited is an understatement!!

He immediately grabs at your heart strings. He is broken and makes you want to fix him. He is sexy as hell too! And oh, some of the things he says and does in the book! There are a few favorites I have. One is nude painting. Then there is the big bad wolf. And one of my favorite lines.. Maybe you should see me at my best. He is a seriously f'ed up individual. He uses drugs and women to numb the emptiness he feels.

But I will give him credit for being honest about it. Make no mistake, he is in your face honest and makes no apologies for it. From the moment he meets her, he begins to make some serious changes in his life. At first, she is scared to pursue whatever this thing between them is. She knows about the drugs and women, she has seen both up close and personal, and is scared of what a relationship with Pax would mean for her.

I read so many stories where there is this instant attraction between the characters and it jut doesn't seem believable. I am not sure if it was the circumstances in which Pax and Mila meet or not, but I could feel the connection with them.

And I appreciated the fact that she wasn't trying to fix him. She wanted him to be the one to fix himself. I think that was important because anyone in Pax's situation has to want to make changes in order for them to stick.

The story of Pax and Mila is one filled with ups and downs. It is sweet at times, and heartbreaking at others. It is raw and dark. And also beautiful and bright. The letter at the end had me breaking out the tissue.

So, be ready because there is no way you can read it and not have the tears streaming down your face. It was a beautiful touch and I think it helped me feel connected even more to the characters.

And the best part? View all 8 comments. Dec 16, Jamie rated it really liked it. Because true love never fails.

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It never dies. It just goes on and on and on. Mila found Pax unconsciouse one night and from that point on, neither of their lives were the same.. He seems to always be living on the edge trying to push himself to the extream He's got plenty of money from an inherite Because true love never fails.

He's got plenty of money from an inheritence so he's got the funds to get what he wants when he wants it. Mila is sweet, beautiful, and strong.. She'll do anything for anyone and has a huge heart. She felt a pull towards Pax from the first moment she laid eyes on him.. Its a struggle.. Pax has some serious ghosts haunting him..

He's buried secrets deep and can't remember the night he lost his mother.. It plays such a huge part of who he is, and when it's discovered and he remembers.. I was turning site pages as quick as I could hoping Pax could survive this and hoping he would let Mila help him. You'll have to read the story and expierence their journey.. I think this book will fit just about anybody.

If you love LOVE, enjoy a determined strong woman that won't give up on him, a bad boy in need of that strong woman, and a heart wrenching secret.. I really enjoyed this book so much.. Mila and Pax were so opposite in every way but yet they were still the missing puzzle piece for each other..

Get it, read it, love it Dec 16, If You Stay is the story Pax and Mila. Pax is the asshole bad boy, who abuses drugs and uses women. Except he's not.

He is a broken man who abuses drugs and uses women to dull his pain. When the two meet they are immediately drawn to each other. Mila, is innocent and sweet- and soon becomes his light. She gives him hope that he can overcome his demons. Soon after meeting her he searches for the answers that will help him to become the man he never he he'd be or deserved to be.

I wish I could write more but that would spoil their story. Their journey is written in a way that is believable. It never felt rushed or forced.

It was pure and their feelings for one another were felt on every page. Their story moved me to tears. I would definitely recommend this book. It's not your typical bad boy book and I think the blurb doesn't it do it justice. The summary seems very promising giving us hope of a angst hot tattooed bastard and even the first chapter gives you a lot of hope that the book is going to rock But after that it just goes downhill..

Its not dragged I'd say, but its very DRY! Like nothing compelling..

I couldn't connect to the book or anything about it.. It was pretty blah for my liking so hence I dumped it. I went ahead and saw that the whole drama was about, like the main story and stuff but even that sucked DNF!!! I went ahead and saw that the whole drama was about, like the main story and stuff but even that sucked.

Like it was 'Ohh.. View all 23 comments. Jan 27, Ash Wednesday rated it it was ok Shelves: A little spoilery but no plot twists given away.

So much promise from that first chapter Actually, it wasn't just the first chapter, Pax Tate was beautifully written it was painful to watch him go down in flames. THIS is how you write a douchebag. Because I've been reading a lot of tortured, tatted and damaged heroes who are trying so very hard to be assholes. With Pax, it was just so organic and I have to commend the writer on this. It's not easy to write something from a guy's POV and make A little spoilery but no plot twists given away.

It's not easy to write something from a guy's POV and make his asshattery is that a word? That's tough. It's not that I wish he remained an ass throughout, I just wish he didn't turn into the heroine in the end. See whenever we shift to the heroine's POV it just goes I rationalized for Mila, made excuses to like her.

I thought at first, yeah, she's a bit of a Pollyanna but she perfectly sets off Pax' jaded personality. I figured, she writes the hero so well, she can't possibly be literal with the heroine, right?

She will have something redeeming right? Unfortunately, Mila just dragged Pax' distinct voice in the muddle of the predictable and the prosaic that in the end, their POVs sound like they're one person. And some might find that romantic two become one and all that shiz , but that just sounds SAD. She makes it so easy to hate her. After unblocking the horrid past from Pax' brain through hypnosis, the therapist instructs that he shouldn't be left alone.

And what does our virtuous, loving heroine do? But the doctor said you shouldn't be alone. So you do whatever you'd like. You think about things, you process it however you'd like, but I'm staying. Of course something bad happened after because suddenly, we're back in Logic Land again after that WTF-ery.

Mila doesn't call her out on her shit, she was just impressed with Pax. I can't even. Jan 12, Kristen Proby rated it it was amazing. I was lucky enough to receive an ARC from the author, and I can't wait for everyone else to read this. I will post a full review closer to release day. View all 4 comments.

I may be the Big Bad Wolf, but even wolves need to breathe. Though this was a short read, it packed quite a punch.

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The sweet and beautiful Mila paired with Pax, the bad boy with an awful reputation. They first meet under the direst of circumstances, with Pax barely clinging to life and Mila saving him. What happens after the incident is when things start really to heat up. Another issue that rubbed me the wrong way was, the dude overdosed on cocaine. But I guess I will mention that her father hit her mother occasionally.

Sometimes, people make mistakes, but they can change for the better. And sometimes, it takes a strong woman to forgive the lowlife that hit her. Or, it could just be that the woman is scared to death, has her children to worry about, and other socio-economic reasons why she chooses not to leave. She could also just be humiliated. I don't know. There could be many reasons why a woman chooses to stay. THAT is what I had a problem with.

I strongly disagree. It IS a big deal, and it doesn't signify "healthy" passion at the very least. It's straight up wrong; there's no justification for domestic abuse. All in all, this story offered me nothing new, or unique.Maddy is really not happy with her life, she feels there is no enjoyment in it.

Readers also enjoyed. Let's talk about the steam level. He is also loyal to a fault. All the feelings are new to him and he has no idea what to do.